Day 11 of Juice Feasting - grieving (cooked) food

Just got home from Toronto and am loving the peace, quiet and clean fresh air here.  It's going to be a short entry today, 'cause I just drove two hours, and my brain seems to be a bit fried.

Highlights of the day:

I'm letting my body do its wonderful detoxing thing and I'm loving it.  Fed it about 4 liters/quarts of GVJ (2 big bunches of kale, 2 cucumbers, 1 head of celery, some green apples) and 1/2 a quart of grapefruit.  Yum.  Although I had underestimated what I needed for the drive home, so I got back home tired and cranky, fooling my hunger with pinches of powdered kelp, and am feeling much better after having juiced 1/2 big box of spinach, 1/2 cuke and 2 green apples.

My fat pants are falling off :o)  My skin is oh so soft.  Someone couldn't believe I was in my mid forties today, as my skin and energy are starting to be radiant...

The instant food attraction technique I've talked about these last few days is definitely working!  I was in a meeting for the creation of our raw ecovillage in Starbucks, today, and someone was passing around free samples "ooh free samples!" I immediately thought... I'm such a sucker for buffets and free samples, I tell you!  Caught myself right away, connected to Source, brought in the light to transform this, and pouf, just like magic, I was fine again, and no longer interested in the free cake dangling in front of my face.

I am going through a grieving process about all my favorite addictive foods.  The thought of never eating them is a bit disturbing to me at this point, even though I know full well that I am allergic to them.  So today, I was going through a magazine, and walking through a farmer's market, pausing in front of the homemade French Fries stand, in front of the bread cornucopia, ... and transforming, transforming, transforming, letting go of all related attachments to these foods.  Most of them were non verbal, some of them were, and for a few I got a flashback that I would never have associated consciously with that particular food.  For example, macaroni and cheese were associated subconsciously with my loving father, and the steaks with creamy pepper sauce he would order at restaurants... I would dip a french fry in the sauce, and feel loved and nurtured... Go figure!

The only challenging time was actually at the farmer's market, surrounded by loving healthy people and smelling these foods made with love.  It was more difficult to justify not eating them, my brain was telling me that this juice idea was really silly and err, why not have a cookie while I'm here :o)  More transformation ahead, obviously!  My goal about my food choices, is to have the foods that I am reactive to, become as uninteresting as alcohol to me by the end of the cleanse.  I do not drink alcohol, and have absolutely no interest in it.  No qualms about it, no deprivation, I just don't like it, and I don't like the effect it has on me.  I know I can, I know I can, I know I can... and I do it!

Much love y'all,

Tamara

PS:  I need your feedback:  I looked at my published blog on someone's computer and the font seemed tiny... so which one do you prefer?? This one or the previous days?  thanks!