Today, I had the most wonderful experiences in consciousness shifts, for which I am so grateful... before I tell you all about it, here is a quick update on the cleansing side of things:
There IS a limit to how celery juice a girl can drink in a day!!! And I've reached it! 3 liters today, and I'm celeried out. No kidding, that's about 6 heads of celery. I took action to find more organic greens (other than celery!), because I became acutely aware how that was the tipping point that would make me fall off the wagon. I took a look in the fridge and I snarled in disgust at the jar of celery juice that was left for me to dring... Another day or two without greens, and I'd be toast, I can feel it. So tomorrow, I'm going to work at the local farmer, to learn to garden ( a very useful skill for a city girl like me, who is creating an entire raw ecovillage!), and to pick up whatever he has: chard, kale, arugula, herbs... I've also set up a trade with a friend of mine, who is too happy to give me greens from her garden in exchange for - you guessed it - celery! Another call to someone whom I know sprouts a lot, and I might be able to pick up what I need in terms of sprouting seeds, as I've been away and haven't had time to reorder. I have two of the biggest automatic sprouters, they are absolutely awesome, you can get them at www.eatsprouts.com and are an absolute lifesaver in a small Canadian town.
I'm starting to feel a shift about my emotional eating. I don't know if I will be able to clear myself enough during the cleanse time, so that all emotional eating is gone, but I'm going to give it my very best shot. I am finding that the cleanse is allowing me to go much much deeper in looking at and releasing the patterns of emotional eating. I feel the emotional hunger, and I connect to Source with my Ray of Light, and I start shifting whatever emotion, sensation of tightness in my body until I feel that particular wave of emotional hunger subside. Today, I released a lot of anxiety and dread that I would usually have deadened with food.
Tonight, I went to the supermarket on my way home, way late, at 11pm, and I was feeling a bit hungry. So I look at all the food and everything looks tempting...aargh, I feel like I'm back on square one... so I started taking care of transforming my feelings and cellular memory, while shopping. I connect and clear in the oddest of places, I don't care, if it's up to be released, I'll do it right then and there, and I don't care if my body jerks with the energy in the middle of an aisle in the supermarket.
I was about to sign off and just realized I haven't told you about the most wonderful experience I had today during a session with a client. We hit on the original feeling of existential shame that a toddler takes on, and creates a separation from Source and Oneness with. Babies are totally connected to all that is, and then at one point, they start realizing that other people do not operate like that, and they start shifting into duality and differentiation, progressively loosing all conscious connection to Source. The shift is accompanied by a great deal of shame which could be translated by an inner dialogue that would say something like that: "Well, there must be something wrong with being in Oneness, since no one else is being that way. I shall therefore stop being that way and conform myself to the way others are being around me." We lifted and surrendered that existential shame to Source, and I felt awash with peace and gratitude. Since then, my connection to Source is stronger, and the clearing I did tonight during a session happened much faster than ever before. I love the fact that as I evolve and let go, the healing sessions speed up so much and become so much more profound! And that is why I am cleansing right now.
Much love to all,
Tamara
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