Day 42 of Juice Feasting - sabotage patterns

Some days I wish I'd be on the other side of my patterns already... that I would have mastered them completely, and tonight is one of these nights.  I'm on skype with my good friend Paula on the west coast, who is helping me clear my sabotage eating patterns, having discovering my friends' home was empty and all their sweet gooey pastries out on the counter... I sneaked two teaspoons of the cookie dough from the ice cream, and immediately called her for help!  (sigh)  Good thing I had just taken the formula #2 (bentonite clay), it will absorb my little mishap.  Right now, we are clearing the "I just don't care, fuck it anyway!" and the "life suck / life is bad anyway" patterns.  Mine date back from being around 7 years old, hers are as old as it gets, having been transmitted down her family line.  I'm actually doing the transformation work for the both of us, but it helped tremendously to identify them with her.

(a few minutes later)

Ok, done, these are cleared now.  I'm off skype.  I'm going to concentrate on eradicating general eating related sabotage patterns, because enough is enough!!

Apart from that, I had a lovely day.  The coconut water kefir I made a couple of night ago is delicious.  I made some unusual yummy juices today: cucumber, zucchini, pea and sunflower sprouts, and defrosted fresh cranberries.  I'd leave out the sunflower sprouts for a milder taste.  The zucchini makes the juice more creamy tasting.  I actually really dislike raw zucchini, but I like the juice blended with other things.

I also went out with a friend and collected two big bags of raspberry leaves to make tea this winter.  I froze the leaves instead of dehydrating them since I won't be home for a couple of days... I hope that will be ok!

We had a very productive meeting for the creation of our ecovillage today.  We realized that we really needed to address all our fears, doubts, "yeah but," "what if" and other paralyzing thoughts, before doing any more work on the village, in order to clear the way.  So we made a big long list of all the fears and concerns, big and small, that passed through our head, and we will clear them all in a conference call this week.  I can do the clearing work on many people at once, and have done these types of conference calls before.

So in a way, the day was dedicated to identifying and clearing sabotage patterns!

Yeah to clearing the way to our wonderful life!