Day 47 of Juice Feasting - getting to the bottom of self-sabotage clearing and chipotle!

A few awesome sessions today, and a great breakthrough for myself.  A friend and I were able to get to the bottom of the self sabotage feeling, that was present but non-verbal, and I just wasn't able to become aware of it and detach from it.  Why?  Because I most likely have been imprinted with it since the beginning, while developing in-utero, didn't know any different, and felt it to be a part of me.  You cannot let go of something you identify with.

That sabotage pattern translates roughly as "Life won't work anyway" "It's not going to work anyway."  It felt arduous detaching from it, and rewiring new pathways in the brain, but that's just because "it's not going to work anyway" was being felt.  When you clear a specific pattern, you usually feel it on heightened mode, until it is completely gone.  Sure feels good to have it GONE!

After a few juices spiked with lots of cayenne and all the hot pepper powders I could find...

I'm still on shivering mode, so I'm going to go exercise in the sunshine...

... went to friends' house, jumped on their trampoline and taught them how to make raw crackers with some of the leftover veggie pulp from today, ground flax, ground sunflower seeds, some water, and put your hands in there until it is all mooshed up.  Then add whatever spices are available.  Spread on the teflex sheets of an excalibur dehydrator, flip them and remove the sheet about two hours into drying.  To minimize mold, I put the dehydrator on 120 for two hours, then lower it to 108, this way it dries faster.  We chose a mediterranean theme for this batch: rosemary, salt, pepper, cayenne, herbe de provence... and decorated the tops with cilantro leaves.  

We then went for a bike ride - yes,  I am exercising (a side effect of the sabotage clearing) - and watched a glorious sunset over the bay.  I feel peaceful, grateful, and I'm integrating the big shift that happened today.

Much love to all!