Day 54 of Juice Feasting - on the go

I didn't have the courage to blog last night.  I had a massage in the afternoon, which was awesome to get me back in my body, and that also brought forth some more grief and pain.  I didn't feel motivated to do anything.  I just wanted to numb myself.

I made myself  about 4 liters/quarts of juices with a bit of everything we had bought (celery, cucumber, radish, tomato, parsley, cilantro, fennel) and 1/2 a liter of grapefruit, ate all my superfood superballs, then went to watch some series on TV with my friends.  I don't watch TV usually, and found it to be particularly numbing.  I had some fruits that were lying on the table there, and didn't feel too hot about that.  I know it's stupid.  I've just lost one of the person I loved the most, and we had an incredible soul and heart connection, emotional eating has always been prevalent in my life, and here I am beating myself up over eating some fruits.  Come to think of it, it is a great way to put the focus somewhere else.  You can tell by the doom and gloom tone of this post that I haven't cleared anything yet, but I will.  It's definitely a roller coaster ride of emotions these days.  I'm grateful for the opportunity to bring more light into myself.

I'm having my first session of the day in one hour, so I'm going to make some juices before hand.  I'm taking the bus into New York City today, and will be there for about a week.  I'm taking my friend's juicer with me.  I lived in New York (technically Hoboken, which is 10 minutes away from midtown) for 12 years, and had a tour company.  I know New York inside and out, and have old friends there.  I am excited about reconnecting, exploring old haunts, going shopping for medicinal mushrooms in Chinatown...